¡Hola desde Madrid!

I believe this will be my last entry before 2007. I´m in Madrid, in the airport, and I have 2 hours left before my flight to Rio de Janeiro. So this will be short, cause the internet hour here is 8€ .

I´m happy, as you might imagine. Everything went fine, the flight and Madrid... I love this city, I spent great moments here and remembering all makes me jumpy. Well... I´m jumpy anyways, cause I´m on my way to see the Ric .

So, I guess this is all for now. I guess I´ll see you all next year, so I wish you Happy Holidays with your loved ones... y mucho amor para todos.

¡Hola desde Madrid!©2006 moonlight

Passion

Periodically, I get obsessed with old series. A few months back it was "Ally McBeal", now it's "Buffy". Maybe not the best show ever, but quite funny, plus I totally loooove David Boreanaz, he's damn cute . And here's my favourite quote by Angel (actually Angelus, from the time he was "mean"):

"Sometimes it hurts more then we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead."

Any truth in that? I believe so. At least it is the way I feel, without passion in my life. And this is why I'm constantlly looking for it, though there are people who tell me I shouldn't live that intensely all my emotions. Ric said to me one time that if he lived our relationship the way I do, he would cross the Atlantic swimming to see me... (that's sweet ). Well, niño, nos vemos en menos de dos semanas. ¿Lo puedes creer?

Passion©2006 moonlight / PHOTO by GOOGLE

6 Months Down, 3 Weeks to Go

I haven't been able to update this blog for the past week, as I have been busy handling my mixed feelings and also spent a great weekend in the mountains in a cool teambuilding with the dance school (no photos, though, I had the camera with me, but there were too many people taking pictures, so for once I just wanted to have a good time ).

Soooo... as some of you already know, I've received my invitation for the visa, after 3 weeks of waiting and making everyone hate me (Ric included....) and this morning I went to apply for it, left all the documentation at the embassy and... well, I'll have it tomorrow!!! So, it's official, I'm going to Brasil. In... 3 weeks... Can you believe it? gosh, I'm so freaked out, I have a million things to do now, but all I can think about is the moment I'll get out of that plane with 40 degrees outside and 100 in my heart (that's such a clichée , but you understand me, don't you?).

Honey... I'm coming. Unless you make me mad again and I'll change my mind .

6 months down, 3 weeks to go©2006 moonlight / PHOTO by ... I don´t remember now

It Smells Like X-mas

Now, to share the same spirit one of my dear friends does... Christmas is almost coming!!!!

Who cares there's still a month and a half till then? Christmas is coming! A few days ago, we had the first snow in Bucharest. In other parts of the country, there was more, but in Bucharest it only lasted for a few minutes . That's sad... I hope we will have lots and lots of snow this year (it's the only thing I like about winter...). And I hope we will have snow before my leaving to Brazil. Have I told you that? I'm sure I did.. I'm sure you're quite sick of it... Well, I'm quite excited, but still didn't get the invitation (do I really have to tell you that the post services suck?).

So, 1 month left. Actually, a month and 3 days, but then again, who's counting?! I need a break from work, cause I'm really starting to hate it (counting to 10 now and taking a deep breath.... ok, I'm calm...).

As I said, Christmas is coming, vacations are coming, and I swear I will forget about the last month and move forward, cause some people are just not worth losing your temper for. (1...2...3...4...5...6...7...8...9...10... and breathing... Have you seen "Toamna bobocilor"?).

Now, to get you all into the holliday spirit (who cares there's still a month left?), here's some recommendations....

- watch some good cartoons (may I suggest Tom & Jerry? they're always in fashion)

- also check out the classic movies you always like to watch around this date (and not only X-mas movies.. I believe that anything that lifts your spirit does the trick.. who cares you have seen them 100 times? watch them again ). My suggestions... "Home Alone", "Harry Potter", "The Lord of the Rings" (of course ), " The Nightmare Before Christmas", "Shrek", "The Chronicles of Narnia", "Love Actually", "Die Hard", "Heidi", "Miracle on 34th Street", "The Nutcracker", "How the Grinch Stole Christmas", "Joyeux Noel", "The Polar Express", "Stuart Little", "Jack Frost", "Willow", "The Princess Bride", "The Neverending Story", "A Christmas Carol", "White Christmas"..... And I'm stoping here, to avoid being killed by you, but I'm waiting for suggestions, cause I've started the movie-marathon .

- go and buy silly stuff for your Christmas tree... the supermarkets are already full of them

- have a big cup of hot wine with cinnamon and sugar and... relax, listen to some carols (again, who cares there's still a month left?) ... I'm sure you'll find other things you can do to catch the X-mas spirit . Just have fun!

It smells like X-mas©2006 moonlight / PHOTO by GOOGLE

Uriah Heep and... Iris, of course :)

Some of you, the ones who were at Sala Palatului yesterday evening, have seen a fantastic show made by Uriah Heep and Iris.

Again, I am speechless. I am not even going to talk about Raza, the band who made the opening; they were quite boring and the only two entertaining songs they played were "Amintire cu Haiducii" (original by Phoenix) and Evanescence's "Bring Me to Life".

I will speak of the 40 minutes' show Iris did, and of the hour and a half Uriah Heep played. A few years back, when Iris released the "Matase alba" album, Uriah Heep were in Romania as their guests in a show at the Baneasa airport. They registered together a modern version of "Lady in Black" (check my blast), which I find better than the original. Yesterday, Uriah Heep made the show and Iris were the guests, but nevertheless, they were incredible as always. By now, I'm sure you all know I'm a huge Iris fan and I will always believe them to be the greatest band ever ). Oh... and yesterday I was on stage, along with Cati and a friend of hers, with iris flowers for Cristi, just after they sang "Floare de Iris" (to quote Cati, "this was sooo coool" ).

And what about Uriah Heep? They compressed a 35 years work in 90 incendiary minutes, ending with the old version of "Lady in Black" (I think everyone was kind of expecting they played it with Iris, but still it was great). They were just incredible, I mean, looking at them you would think they wouldn't have any energy left for touring and shows... but they were like having adrenaline shots made just before the show. So, I was impressed. Again, seing such great artists is a real satisfaction. And what really moved me was seing the hall full of people quite past 30-40 years of age, and this is a good sign that the rock phenomenon in Romania is not limited to 15 year-old girls. What more can I say? It was fantastic!!!!

So, to resume, it was a great weekend. A long weekend, I might add, as I had a bonus day today and didn't go to work. I'm only sad for not being able to take any pictures (you can blame my brother for making me leave the camera at home), so I only have the ones Mihnea and Ioana took (and, of course, I'm not going to post them here, as they are not mine to use... well, maybe just one, along with my thanks). Back to work tomorrow, but it will be a short week. Now I'm waiting for the postman with my invitation for the visa (btw... I'm damn weak, I decided to go to Brasil anyways, but don't tell Ric, he'll just stop doing any efforts ) and for the weekend in the mountains with the dance school . See ya!

Uriah Heep and... Iris, of course ©2006 moonlight / PHOTO by Mihnea

Tăcere

The perfect Sunday afternoon... can you imagine? It is the middle of October, and still, it was a nearly-summer day. So I couldn't have missed it, I just took my camera and went for a walk in the Herăstrău park... the place I most love in Bucharest. You can see the results in the photo album I've added. Also, this perfect day had it's ending in this little poem, that may mean the return of my inspiration...

O frunză de toamnă

murind pe un ram,

o undă stingheră ce nemişcarea-o străpunge,

un ţipăt cu negru cărbune pictat

pe-un cer de-un albastru cu-aromă de vară...

O pală de vânt adiind a răcoare,

ce frunza de toamnă-n vals lent o coboară,

un copil ce nu ştie

că lacul adoarme

şi că de mâine ploaia-l îneacă.

Un cântec de fată, abia susurat,

dar frunza de toamnă nu mai respiră;

un ultim sărut răzvrătit printre doruri,

o floare de nufăr, o ultimă rază.

(I tried to translate it, but it sounded really stupid in English... one always expresses his feelings better in his mother tongue... tal vez lo voy a intentar en castellano, pero no esta noche...)

Tăcere & PHOTO©2006 moonlight

Autumn Feelings II

Today... two poems/songs about autumn... May you all be loved...

EMOŢIE DE TOAMNĂ (NICHITA STĂNESCU)

A venit toamna, acoperă-mi inima cu ceva,

cu umbra unui copac sau mai bine cu umbra ta.

Mă tem că n-am să te mai văd, uneori,

ca or să-mi crească aripi ascuţite până la nori,

că ai să te ascunzi într-un ochi străin,

şi el o să se-nchidă cu o frunză de pelin.

Şi-atunci mă apropii de pietre şi tac,

iau cuvintele şi le-nec în mare.

Şuier luna şi o rasar şi o prefac

într-o dragoste mare.

din vol. "O viziune a sentimentelor" (1964)

FOREVER AUTUMN (LAKE OF TEARS)

So, the season of the fall begins

Down the crossroads in a sleepy little inn

By the fire when the sun goes down

But the night becomes you

And the secrets of the rain

Forever autumn

And the season of the fall begins

Out the nightlands when the thunderstorm sets in

The secrets clear in the cloudy night

But the night becomes you

And the secrets of the rain, they will stay the same

And the time will come soon

With the secrets of the rain, and the storm again

Coming closer every day, forever autumn

And the season of the fall begins

Past the passingbell, past willow weeping

A ripple forms on the brinks of time

But the night becomes you

And the secrets of the rain, they will stay the same

And the time will come soon

With the secrets of the rain, and the storm again

Coming closer every day, forever autumn

from the album "Forever Autumn" (1999)

PHOTO©2005 moonlight / POEM BY NICHITA STANESCU / SONG BY LAKE OF TEARS

Autumn Feelings

2 months... God, I'm counting the days till my vacation starts... but it seems like time is passing very fast, and it'll be December before knowing it. Plus I'll be busy with the embassy and taking care of all this, also my dancing classes, that the weeks will seem to be running .

¿Brasil o España?¿ Rio de Janeiro o La Coruña? Lo decidiré en aproximadamente dos semanas. En este momento, Coruña suena mejor, no me cuesta tanto trabajo llegar allí, no necesito de visado, además, Coruña nunca me desilusionó... pero veremos...

October has just come. For some, it's the beginning of school. I kind of miss school, it used to bring me an undefined emotion, especially when I was younger. I'd do it all over again, although I know it's silly and now I've reached another level in my life.

I love autumn. Well, not the part when it rains continuouslly, but I love the colours, and the sunny days when everything seems so peacefull... I guess autumn is the season when I'm most tranquil, and find myself lost in the beauty of the silence. It doesn't have anything from the usual agitation of spring, when I'm full of life, or of summer, or of winter, when Christmas lasts 2 months for me . I love autumn because it makes me forget about everything and everyone, and not care anymore. I'm just... ok... for now.

I would like to wish a warm "Happy birthday" to my sweet brother, who turns 22 tomorrow. May you be happy and loved, and remember that you can count on me for anything.

For the rest of you, I miss you... all my friends, especially the ones I made in school, because I miss school so much righ now. Maria honey, um beijo... tenho saudades dos momentos que passamos juntas, as três... Sorte, menina! Vai ver que as coisas vão sair bem!

Autumn feelings© 2006 moonlight / PHOTO BY MARIA

Stop

How would the most important day of your life look like?

Would it be the day you finally find the job of your dreams? Or the day you marry that one person who makes your life bright? The day your first child is born? The day you win the lottery?

Or would it be the day you finally stop from your usual routine, your hurry, and really smell the air, see the sky, hear the rain, feel the wind? Give it a thought, give it a try...

Blockage

I'm not writing anymore... I haven't written a poem in a month, and the last one was so depressing, I didn't put in on the web site I post my poems on.

I used to open the dictionary, pick any word, and find inspiration... began with that word and everything else was just coming to me. Writing has always helped me express my feelings, it was the only way to show them, since I'm usually the type of person who doesn't say out loud what she thinks or feels. Now... all that is lost. And the year I spent in Spain... well, that was my most prolific, I think it was because Coruña is such a magic place.

Maybe I'm too busy. Maybe it's because I'm not happy anymore. Maybe I worry too much about the future and forget that life is great the way it is... who knows. I need inspiration...

Menino do meu coração, preciso de você... e de todo esse amor que faz tempo que não me deu...